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About Me Literature / Professional Member MadameRubyFemale/United States Group group avatar #Hujoo-lovers
 
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  • Eating: Oreos
  • Drinking: Milk
It's been a while since I've made a dA journal entry. A LOT of shit has happened.

I broke up with my boyfriend. I had to. I was going through a severe mental breakdown and I attempted to run away from my own life - something I've done before.

I moved back in with my mom and my new stepdad. I'm an hour away from my job, but that's fine because I'm on medical leave. I've been diagnosed with Bipolar, and apparently I'm going through what's called a "mixed mood". I've been like this for almost two months now, with bouts of insomnia followed by days where I sleep for twelve hours straight, periods where I feel ready to do anything and everything, followed by days worth of sleepless depression with too much nervous energy. I've developed social anxiety, and even just today I've broken down into tears at the prospect of being dragged out into public.

I'm attempting to save my spoons for Thanksgiving tomorrow since I'll be in someone else's home with a bunch of people I don't know. No idea how well I'm going to  do tomorrow, but we'll see.

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~MadameRuby
MaRu
Artist | Professional | Literature
United States
I'm an adopted child with three older siblings (two brothers, one sister), and I spend most of my time not at work writing, roleplaying, reading, or messing around on Tumblr.

I've been writing ever since I was a kid, and for years my biggest goal in life was to get published. Thanks to the wonderful people at Less Than Three Press, I've managed to accomplish that goal with my book Forget Me Not. I'm working on a sequel, as well as having a couple ideas for femslash fluff, but there's no completion date for any of that just yet.
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=Rayhiros Oct 3, 2011  Hobbyist Artist
Thanks alot for the Fav. :3
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*tess-n Apr 17, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thanks for the watch!

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pesterchum handle --> heartbreakBandit
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~PhantomSunsSong Mar 16, 2011  Student Writer
Thanks for the watch! :3

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TT: Darkness is a harsh term, don't you think?
TT: And yet, it dominates the things I see.
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~MadameRuby Mar 16, 2011  Professional Writer
No problem! :D

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Psst, go read Forget Me Not! /shameless self-promotion

Wait, not done with shamelessness yet! Go check out With Love Comes Obsession!
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~Sunny458 Feb 5, 2011  Student General Artist
thanks for the fav!

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If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
(If Everyone Cared - Nickellback)
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~NekoGothDemon Nov 8, 2010  Student General Artist
Thanks for the watch :D

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All guts, no glory~

"How bout' I cut off your hands and feet, watch you crawl around on bloody stumps, and then shove your severed limbs up your prude little a*shole?

That sound fun?"
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Thanks for the fav :)
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Thank you so much for the favorite on my poem! I'm super glad you liked it enough to acknowledge it. I hope you like my other writing as well! :)

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I'll love you forever; I'll like you for always; As long as you're living, my baby you'll be.

Whitticisms
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Thanks for the watch!
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